11:07 pm

The cold distance
separates reality from fantasy
takes you away from Responsibilities
Requirements Repression
The day to day drivel that drives you to the brink
So you enter in
slowly at first
and it feels good
you take another step
the hairs on the back of your neck prickle at the clicking sounds
fingertips madly expressing thoughts feelings worries
to someone who cares
to someone who will lick your wounds
and make you feel new again
like the fresh skin of a snake
how can you resist?

You think of her
briefly
and wonder why she cannot fill this void
wonder why you have to enter into a world forbidden
to find what you seek
But you do not wonder where it will lead
or what terror it brings into the heart of another
You simply enter in
cold and unfulfilled
palms sweaty
searching for an answer
searching for the words that will make the pain go away

And you leave
Content
your chest stuck out proudly
the muscles in your jaw relaxed
the storm of your mind subdued

But at what cost?